what was the hardest part of my life

during the split last year i couldn’t do anything i just sat at home crying, i had lost you all because of the way our parents reacted, i had lost the love of my life the one who helps me through everything and you where just there one day and then next it was as if you didn’t exist 

yeah that was hard but what was harder was not running over and hugging the hell out of you when i saw you in a shop with your step mam because we weren’t allowed to be together that was one of the most painful experiences of my life having to just ignore you or pretend i didn’t see you

then came the day your mam said i could see you on your birthday and i collapsed on my room once i got off the phone to your mum and when your mam opened the door on your birthday and i saw you and knew i could hold you that’s what i did, i held you tighter and longer than i ever had

the smell of your hair, the feel of your checks against mine, the feel of your breath on my next and hands on my back, the sound of your voice and look in your eyes was amazing for the 2 months of hell i went through just to get to that moment was amazing because at that exact moment i was the happiest i had been in a long time

you are my everything charlie, you are the love of my life and so much more than my partner, you are also my friend and more than anyone could ever know 

thank you for being there for me i love you honey and will see you soon love

Ry x